So, some folks asked me to post an update about my recent trip to Ireland.
Let me start out by saying, it was absolutely amazing. The food, the scenery, everything was fantastic. I went for my sister's wedding and it turned into one of the best trips I have ever taken. I didn't get to see the entire country, but I did get to see a number of iconic sites such as the Cliffs of Moher and the Guinness Storehouse in Dublin. Anyone wondering about visiting the country, I highly recommend it. I can't wait to go back. It provided a well needed respite from everything.
Other more somber news.
Some folks have been tracking since the beginning that I was applying for various jobs and trying to finally break into my dream. Honestly, I haven't heard back from a single one. It's disheartening, but I think I knew this all from the get go. I'm going to keep trying at new and different places though. I know that even if I get 999 "No's" I just need 1 "Yes" but it's always frightening to think about how long that could possibly take.
I also want to apologize. In some recent posts I have had folks debating with me academically to an extent and I try to keep it cordial but sometimes I don't think that intent translates well into text. Couple that with some depression creeping up as I start to approach the 1 year anniversary of my father dying and honestly I don't feel 100% like myself. I don't want to seem needy or like I am constantly trying to get attention, but sometimes I just need someone to talk to.
I want to think my dad would be proud of me, but I don't think he would. I haven't amounted to anything in my life in 26 years and I guess I feel desperate.