So when 2015 started, I had just been laid off of a job and I decided to go full freelance, but was constantly struggling with money. I got some gigs, some big, some small, but enough to get by, barely. It was a struggle and I was constantly fighting with depression because of it.
By early summer, I was in a better place financially, thought of moving to Austin, and then I got the best news I've ever gotten. I got the opportunity to intern at RoosterTeeth, a company I've looked up to and followed since I was early high school, when they first started. What followed was the best summer I've ever had with a job that fulfilled me creatively. I was finally helping to make things that would be seen by a lot of people (well, at least be more involved in the projects than I would be with Ninja Warrior, Amazing Race, or the-other-show-I-PA'd-on-that-I-can't-talk-about-yet). RTX was an eye opening event for me, it showed me what I wanted to do.
At the end of the summer, the internship ended. Almost abruptly, as I had mixed up when my last day would be so I went into my last day not knowing it would be. It hit me harder than I ever expected it to. I don't know if I showed it, but that day was pretty hard for me, even if I knew it was coming. I'm not a hugger, I'm a big lumbering, awkward guy who doesn't show emotion a lot, but someone gave me a hug when I left that really helped me out.
But living in Austin took it's toll financially. I pretty much used up all of my savings to be there. It was worth every penny, but it meant I had to come back to Dallas. I was back to square one in terms of gigs. I came back to my regular contacts having already hired others and gotten other regulars, and was back to submitting resumes on crew listing sites. The summer was the highest highs, but the fall was the lowest lows.
I got a couple well paying gigs, but it's been a struggle. At the end of the year, I feel almost exactly as I felt at the beginning of the year. Even having accomplished so much, being this low has really gotten to me.
The plus side is that almost immediately after leaving Austin, i decided to start my own youtube channel. I barely get any views, but for several months there I was able to have a consistent schedule of one video per day. I've recently changed that to three a week, but still, the fact that I know I can do that is heartening. I was even able to sign with a youtube partner with Fullscreen. On top of that, the past few weeks I've been helping out with the awesome fans on the AH Community channel and making content there.
I'm hoping 2016 will be more consistently good than this year has been. I've been dry on gigs for several weeks here so I'm thinking of staying in Austin for a few months with my current savings and seeing if I can get any work there by being more local, as I've had a few positions turn me down for not living there (even though it's extremely easy for me to drive there).
So yeah, I wish I could tell 2015 to suck it, but it's a bit more complicated than that.